Wall of seclusion

You melted the ice surrounding my heart,
Wrenched out my emotions, tore them apart.
My island, my rock of defence, you invaded.
Feelings once hidden, now are paraded
When you laugh at my tears.

My life, always ruled by my head,
Now my heart of lead dominates instead
That fear of hurt, emotional pain -
That dread it fills my heart again.
A dream of love came alive.
In reality it died.

Your hands created ecstasy, a moment in time.
A natural pleasure – the senses - sublime.
I crave your touch, desire your heart;
We pull apart.
I'm afraid again, must pretend an illusion,
And build that hard, dark wall of seclusion.


Sue Tonge, June 1986 – hurting again...